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Hello F'cking! World!!!

Hi! Hola!

And Happy New York Knicks Boricua Day!!

Okay!

I am excited to even begin to type, where should your girl start!?..oh where do I begin!

 Lets start with the darkness.. its where I was reborn and in that darkness came a lot of depression, anxiety, weight gain..by the way I am down 75lbs!! I Know Ya See it!!

Yes.. while camming, Life does get real after logging off.. oh Lets see a tiny acs investigation that damn near went into 5 years.. and Yea.. I won the Lawsuit!!.. Hey Parents I'm optioning for Home-School next Kid around...

Let's see, Oh yea I discovered that I am more of an "online fantasy" as oppose to a "real person" who has feelings to an actual normal guy,so I've thought. I have gotten my recent modern day fair share of " A toxic heartbreak before it got any deep" ..but we were just walking pass with lustful feelings...NEWS FLASH! Congratulations!  He has a 5month old and a post partum wife waiting his safety to return home.. Leave Me ALONE!.. I'll stick to streaming. Whew!.  Ready for another one?... The baby momma lives 10 steps away from me..

Oh YEA LETS MOVE ON..shall we...

Lets See,

Lets See Oh yea I am in a space happy to embrace the new me,new aura,,"Of you fck with me or don't" I can careless.. I am staying  non reactive to the bullsh*

I am seeing how much power there is in Silence and In having Boundaries.

I am looking forward for this summer to be Magical as MJ would Put it and Yes I have seen the movie!

But its good to be back into the blogging..just to blerp out the lil noise in my head before it gets chaotic!

And Now to the light Of dropping so much weight and feeling so much confidence to sit in front of the cam and speak with the chat! .. Lovense toy Upgrades! The Nipple Clamper Vibrator!! Atomic!! 

Can't Wait!!

Happy Summer!!

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When Camming Is Therapy..

 

I Took to camming has a side hustle and utilized camming has a place to create, heal and to grow. In November 2020,I was In a Bike accident, my acl shattered into pieces, I felt it was no recover from it All!!.I Blamed my ambition and what I valued at the time. I internalized it as an opening to begin healing within me than to just recover and walk again. I Knew that it was something deeper because of the friction that comes within progress, I was taught from youth that you don’t keep pedaling on with friction you “Fix it” and that’s what came into revelation. I couldn’t believe what was revealed to me from heavy burdens from past trauma and depression. It has no place in business that your passionate about. Once I’ve realized this, I did the spiritual work that allowed me to heal without pointing fingers, I wanted to make sure I am in clear mind, heart and soul with who I share my Energy with. Accountability, humbled me to owning up to my shit and with that came Forgiveness. You see in my head I take Forgiveness as a Dollar Sign. Forgivene$$. The forgiving part came with the act of silently letting go and to forgive myself for not being very protective over my emotions and being so naïve and gullible to other peoples dreams, goals and their ideas that I would work hard for theirs. With Forgiving came Gratitude, when I was able to bend my knee to get the surgery I realized how things are all in connection so therefore self-acceptance was opened to me to see that I Must LOVE Myself first before sending out Love to others. With Love Came Creativity, To wake up and stream Made me smile and helped me out of depression. It comes from doing what I love everything else falls in line. Networking with genuine like minded Individuals. Beauty! You’ll be surprised of how many things I was still holding on to in the past which was a blockage from achieving my goals in My Life, I wanted to make amends and make peace and with that came the Lessons and rich value of I cherish in people like Loyalty, Kindness, just all that sexy shit! Here I am 4mths. In Post Op and Ready to Take over the world But my Ortho and Physical Therapist told me to jog first…will do. W O O O S A H I Thank You for Reading My Blog! I Hope this may have inspired anyone to continue pursuing their goals no matter the obstacle. Do The Inner Work Watch How Beauty Blossoms Before You! Check out My Cam Stream Shows and Get To Know Your Cam Girl Sweetheart By Subscribing To My Onlyfan My Onlyfans

It's A Chill Saturday

Waking up in a warm cozy morning

To run oil on my ass with an extra ounce of love for myself.

Body appreciation and acceptance starts within and it truly does.

it's been an awesome healing journey 

To be able to walk...jog. squats..

The Best

Thank you for the support 

The emails 💋

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Happy 2022🍾

The First Sunday Of 2022🍾

🍾🍾🍾😌

Lets Just Breathe!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!🥂

So In my mind,

First of all I am excited!!!

But what's happening is

Knowing that my goals that I am setting

I am envisioning the accomplishment.

It Started with just a simple goal and that's to have more book reading time and workout time..That's it.

Currently, I am reading

Daniel Goleman Emotional Intelligence.

It's a good read. What our brains can do and how the emotions are all in tact with it, I have to switch up my routine just to keep my emotions intact Personally, certain routines feel robotic and then I start to feel like I'm on auto pilot..I lose interest and in creeps depression...aht aht..I am have a book on deck and a writing pad.

I spent almost all my life trying to fit Into

Other people boxes and it didn't work.

Before the pandemic it was playing the game of catch up with me working 

At Marshall's and feeling like my life was fading.

Before quitting my job I was able to Slide into Berekely College just to leave with 3 Credits during the shut down.

Now what do I do?

My emotions flying everywhere

So let me slow it down getting my emotions on track

With me doing things that are in alignment 

With who I am,my true authentic self

I want this year to be a year of accomplished goal and a nice waistline😌

O My Chi: A Happier Mindset

A Happier Mindset is all about your "Chi" The article by Koya Webb.

( I forgot which Magazine something Wellness🙄🤷🏾‍♀️)

I was awaiting my Physical Therapist for the fun and pain of bending and lifting hooray to my, "Oh-So-Poor" knee,hurrying to take a seat with an anxious huff and puff of achievement  for getting to the chair without my knee becoming imbalanced..and bam.."Boosting your chi increases oxygen to your brain."

YEA Tell me about it.😳

-See what happens with bracing all elements of healing you don't become frustrated with the minor things like I have been before my injury.My brain was reckless I had more concerns for others than myself and the brain cells was on overdrive.

 I had forgotten my..."Chi"

It's the little small things that are the mighty wins in our lives and somehow I just wanted to rush to sit down.

This seated half squat mentioned in the article, inhaling with your arms up with a four count really relaxes the brain..and takes the stress away.

It's part of my Healing that I feel like I can run a marathon, It's the brain letting me know how excited it is to be balanced with two working legs and yet I do have to relax and Remind myself to "slow down we are not there just yet".

-This was just an After Christmas Sunday Reflection on this past week.

It's goes well when you take the Time Out to Just Breathe.

Yall...Breathe.

Happy Sunday

So we're officially closing out December as fast as possible😆

I just took a small reflection back from this whole entire injury. .and I am happy,Happy, to say that the process throughout my recovery has been beautiful 

I've learned that although it doesn't happen overnight but to hang in there.

I felt like my happiness really came at the time of my lowest point ..hoping any of my "so called" friend would come help me...

It never happened so God Stepped in..and I surrendered.From getting out of my own way and saw that it's much more rewarding to give to others🥰

I knew I'd come out of this as champ.

Just patience was required.

Lost my phone a few days ago

For a Cuban Hottie to return my phone..wheew

Thank you for Rocking With Me this Sunday.

Sundays The Marathon

Just want to say

I am healing up quite well

I Am able to move around

But just on one Crutches 

It's a Win for Me  to Even

Patience Is A Virtue

🎃 Happy Heal-O-Ween🎃

🎃- Only In Scorpio Season

We Can RAISE HELL and HEAL At The Sametime🙄😫😁

🎃- While I'm on this humbling downtime

So Much I have realized.

To Keep being Ambitious no matter

What

🎃- If you are so restricted from your injury

Consult your physician 

If getting Depressed Write.Read.Pray.

🎃- This Is Officially My Road To Recovery

And Honestly...I am amazed at the results,the perspective,the energy, the lessons,the blessings..

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🎃- I am embracing all of it within this Recovery Process.

The Doctors Were Amazing.. I

Right Now I am just laid up..

Relaxing 😌 and Masturbating.

Later.

Pre-Op - jus anxious

So Truth Truth Truth..I am Literally Nervous

Excited terrified of this acl surgery thats

Going down on my birthday and yet

Can't wait to recover... 

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Sunday Vibes

Sundays are for Manifestation 

Soulcare Sundays

Lets Just Start Off With...

Oooom....ahhooom..inhale..exhale.

Did You Say To Yourself, "I Love Myself"

Or "Everything Is Happening For A Reason."

"Stay Calm" or "Trust The Process".

That has been the battle for me since the bike accident. My torn ACL is still under construction 😪 but it's the healing process that comes with it.

The Results From Mental,Sexual, even physical.

(THANK YOU FOR YOUR CONSTANT SUPPORT❤)

I have accepted  that things will always have a different perspective after the surgery even now realizing that the only hero I have is Me. What a much needed rude awakening! 

I have realized  I have spent much of

My time loyal to misguided people 

The Higher Power saw how I was being

Mistreated by a particular person who actually would have been my partner til this day...Although I am Extremely  Grateful for Such A Life Experience. 

But it Took me out of the equation just to see how confused, condensed and controlling people can be...

I am Happy 😊

I want to heal

Things are happening for a reason just to keep things moving forward.

I realized how disorganized  I have been with Content.... (See This Photo Set @ THEEMISSCARAMELGODDDESS)

My healing process has empowered me.

Enlightened Me

Given Me More Clarity.

This process has allowed Me to Be Open and honest With myself.

Imagine Giving your Close Friend a Call To Check In On Them and yet they have  no recollection of your injury..😁 See?

 I must move On..

Better Health..

Moving On To Better Health

Able to see Whose for me and Not.

This Healing Process Has also come with weight-loss!!

I mean seriously..I barely can't eat anything unhealthy because of the ligament being crushed  and the idea of me having to eat and then to lay back down with my leg elevated 

Food sticking to my stomach..

The Discomfort of it All!!

oh now wait a minute..

Let's Take Control of My HEALTH.

I think How I ate during my Healing process was the result of the weight-loss from 236 to 160lbs and this pandemic going on

 I really don't trust restaurants fast food for delivery but it is what it is I Love Taco Bell and shake Shack Anyday😆

But of course all in moderation.

I am able to do a lot more Squats...So The Booty Gets. A Raise..

Just then to Think I wanted a BBL.

It's Sunday..Soul...Self..Care

Slow Down to count your blessings

I Thank You For Your View.

For anyone who is on their Own Healing 

Process just know it's So Many Rewards With Healing  

Trust the process find a small light work hobby and keep your mind off of your injury. 

I am Happy and Content With #Camming which helped a lot Through My Depression and Anxiety. 

BE WELL

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NYC Fun And Done

I needed to check 

in on friends and family

In The Bronx...

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UPDATE!!!

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MY SURGERY (ACL RECONSTRUCTION)

IS COMING UP BUT

I AM STILL GOING STRONG 

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JULY 6

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Quick And Easy

I used Chicken Breast

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