When Camming Is Therapy..

 

I Took to camming has a side hustle and utilized camming has a place to create, heal and to grow. In November 2020,I was In a Bike accident, my acl shattered into pieces, I felt it was no recover from it All!!.I Blamed my ambition and what I valued at the time. I internalized it as an opening to begin healing within me than to just recover and walk again. I Knew that it was something deeper because of the friction that comes within progress, I was taught from youth that you don’t keep pedaling on with friction you “Fix it” and that’s what came into revelation. I couldn’t believe what was revealed to me from heavy burdens from past trauma and depression. It has no place in business that your passionate about. Once I’ve realized this, I did the spiritual work that allowed me to heal without pointing fingers, I wanted to make sure I am in clear mind, heart and soul with who I share my Energy with. Accountability, humbled me to owning up to my shit and with that came Forgiveness. You see in my head I take Forgiveness as a Dollar Sign. Forgivene$$. The forgiving part came with the act of silently letting go and to forgive myself for not being very protective over my emotions and being so naïve and gullible to other peoples dreams, goals and their ideas that I would work hard for theirs. With Forgiving came Gratitude, when I was able to bend my knee to get the surgery I realized how things are all in connection so therefore self-acceptance was opened to me to see that I Must LOVE Myself first before sending out Love to others. With Love Came Creativity, To wake up and stream Made me smile and helped me out of depression. It comes from doing what I love everything else falls in line. Networking with genuine like minded Individuals. Beauty! You’ll be surprised of how many things I was still holding on to in the past which was a blockage from achieving my goals in My Life, I wanted to make amends and make peace and with that came the Lessons and rich value of I cherish in people like Loyalty, Kindness, just all that sexy shit! Here I am 4mths. In Post Op and Ready to Take over the world But my Ortho and Physical Therapist told me to jog first…will do. W O O O S A H I Thank You for Reading My Blog! I Hope this may have inspired anyone to continue pursuing their goals no matter the obstacle. Do The Inner Work Watch How Beauty Blossoms Before You! Check out My Cam Stream Shows and Get To Know Your Cam Girl Sweetheart By Subscribing To My Onlyfan My Onlyfans

It's A Chill Saturday

Waking up in a warm cozy morning

To run oil on my ass with an extra ounce of love for myself.

Body appreciation and acceptance starts within and it truly does.

it's been an awesome healing journey 

To be able to walk...jog. squats..

The Best

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Happy 2022🍾

The First Sunday Of 2022🍾

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Lets Just Breathe!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!🥂

So In my mind,

First of all I am excited!!!

But what's happening is

Knowing that my goals that I am setting

I am envisioning the accomplishment.

It Started with just a simple goal and that's to have more book reading time and workout time..That's it.

Currently, I am reading

Daniel Goleman Emotional Intelligence.

It's a good read. What our brains can do and how the emotions are all in tact with it, I have to switch up my routine just to keep my emotions intact Personally, certain routines feel robotic and then I start to feel like I'm on auto pilot..I lose interest and in creeps depression...aht aht..I am have a book on deck and a writing pad.

I spent almost all my life trying to fit Into

Other people boxes and it didn't work.

Before the pandemic it was playing the game of catch up with me working 

At Marshall's and feeling like my life was fading.

Before quitting my job I was able to Slide into Berekely College just to leave with 3 Credits during the shut down.

Now what do I do?

My emotions flying everywhere

So let me slow it down getting my emotions on track

With me doing things that are in alignment 

With who I am,my true authentic self

I want this year to be a year of accomplished goal and a nice waistline😌