Easing The Mental

 O wow

U driving me

 insane

why u keep

fukin with 

my brain

o wow

this love shit

is lame

 all i can do

is move n silence

I was so devoted

you left me heartless

them lies you

tell and sell

you gon reap what you

sow

I blame myself

for being addicted to the toxic

well shit thank you

for the pain

I  wouldn't be 

able shining today

you had me in a 

abusive mental 

lock

so hypnotizing

catchin crossfires

btwn ya moms and 

ya babymoms

respectfully I just listened

and try to find ways

where I can fit in your life

all I wanted was stimulation

maybe I  was foolish to 

see a king in you

you lie and blind the minds of gods

righteous child

you snake you theif

of my heart you break

I am gonna be cool

walking with strength not allowing you

to get to me

its a shame you still glorify

ignorance and pain

imma sang through

the rain and heal

through  this pain

growth is what 

I am inviting

that bag

I've manifested

my spirituality

yea I am getting

excited

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Last Heartbreak

I am Literally Single

And Loving it..

in a long as relationship

Not knowing if it is solid or not

Can sure as hell be a distraction and

Fuck ya head up.

-Nothing really stands strong

If its built on a lie.

This new Found acknowledgement

Of freedom feels Rewarding!

I learned that I am patient,loyal, understanding,and a good listener.

I knew the relationship was over 

When I couldnt mentally

Take hearing him on the phone and

Annoyed....our sex vibe is gone..I lost

My attraction to him a year ago...I was trying to maintain the business aspect of the "personal" but my mental been checked out...thats the complete 10yr age gap...

I can't wait to find solitude again

And be my happy scorpio

Before I allowed a dark uninspired

Male scorpio attempt to steal my sparkle.

The Breakup Text

When I first started out in the adult industry Honestly I didnt know what the heck I was doing but I met a few friends along the way of journey.

In that Journey,I met a guy who was in the media/broadcast industry.Both Scorpios.

I will say my heart fell fast and I will admit.I did get sidetracked.15yrs in a toxic situation and at the time I didnt know I was stuck in a situation.I kept coming back and forth into ythe situation because I didn't know my place in his life and he was nonchalant about it..whats different now is growth.

I received a text that he can no longer have a "Personal Relationship" with me...Wait! Wait! What!? Soooo Thats what we were..Personal...Like Why didnt He say so after all these Years..But it was a Relief To Know..That it was a Personal Relationship...Tyxx.

Honestly,To know my value,my worth,my rights and my voice. I freely can let it go without feeling insecure of my future.

Thats what Led me into the industry was the free spirit nature, nudity and creativity.He used to block my creativity But the text summed everything up and I feel like Me Again.

I will never get into a situation so deep that it  takes me off my business and mental.

The goal is now for me to heal.

As I am reflecting I am feeling Very excited for My future.Leaving 2020 and all its BS right here.Only appreciating the losses and the lessons and growing from them to receive my blessings.

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Day 3 Of This Knee Injury

Its Been 3 days after the bike injury still no progress.I Haven't even Had my physical Therapy appointment yet..Like wtf are they waiting on....

So I have  to Take A deep breath and understand that its a non emergency only COVID-19😾😩

I've been icing and medicating all I want to do is just walk right out of this brace

I want this to heal fast

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Bike Accident

Why do people phone walk and be in the street at the sametime.

I saw the woman crossing the street my attempt was to go around her she stopped ..didnt even look..and next thing I knew I flying over my bike..Landing on my knee.

This shit hurts like😩😩😩😩 like crazy

  ...so Im in the hospital Blogging..in pain.

((Edited Im Home Now Very Much Happy to Be Alive))

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UPDATE 12.15.20

This Has Really Depressed

Me and Its Holiday Season.

🎀😞

With Having My Child

And Trying To Be Superwoman

Is alot but Who Cares.

Only times I'm excited

When I grab my boobs

I cant wait to walk again.

Shadow Banned From Instagram

All Because of posting

This picture 

Oh well

STORY TIME!!!

Mark Manson!!!

I love this book

Basically its his approach on

Not giving a fuck about things

That doesn't matter in that moment.

-

How much attention are we giving 

To people and to things thats does

Not have a long term benefit.

-

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CHEF GANJA

Yes Chef Ganja Is In The House

I had Order This Salad At SweetGreens

So Addictive...I was spending $20.00

A week to eat this salad.

Thats 80 Bucks A Month!!

crazy😳

The Ingredients was very easy 

Only thing you

Have to so is just cook the

Rice,Chicken and a sweet potatoe.

How many as you like

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Heres The Recipe

Of My Kale Salad.

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Kale

Wild Rice (Rice Roni Brand)

Chicken Breast

Sweet Potatoes

Apples

Dry Cherries

Almonds

Goat Cheese

Green Goddess Dressing

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Ok Seriously..Lets talk about these

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Is it diet,weight or stress?

Let Me Know...

Day before My Shoot..I wake up to what

I call a "Chin Zit"😩.

What do any of yall do treat them quickly?

I use TOOTHPASTE.

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breakfast

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Whether its Meditation,exercising, singing even writing are forms of Self Care.

Even crying some will say its taking the soul the laundromat.

Today's Self Care is a Nourishing  & Firming Face Mask with Rose Hip oil I fused with Manuka Honey,hyaluronic Acid,Argan oil and Aloe Vera

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I was up Since 2am..I didn't really feel like streaming had a lot of things  on my mind and when my brain starts rattling🤯..It inspires me to get in that kitchen n cook💋

Recipe For My Oven Bake Chicken

-Butter to Base

Seasonings:

-Onion

-Garlic

-Cilantro

-Parsley

-1 Stick Of Butter

-Chopped & Whole Onion

-Sazon Packets (2)

-Black Pepper

-Sofrito Tomato Base

- Better Than Bouillon Roasted chicken Base

-Olive Oil

-Garlic

[Stuff Whole Onion,Cilantro,Parsley,Garlic and Stick Of Butter Inside The Chicken]

Cabbage With Butternut squash 

Corn On The Cob

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Rice With Scallion and Dry Parsely Toppings

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