Easing The Mental

 O wow

U driving me

 insane

why u keep

fukin with 

my brain

o wow

this love shit

is lame

 all i can do

is move n silence

I was so devoted

you left me heartless

them lies you

tell and sell

you gon reap what you

sow

I blame myself

for being addicted to the toxic

well shit thank you

for the pain

I  wouldn't be 

able shining today

you had me in a 

abusive mental 

lock

so hypnotizing

catchin crossfires

btwn ya moms and 

ya babymoms

respectfully I just listened

and try to find ways

where I can fit in your life

all I wanted was stimulation

maybe I  was foolish to 

see a king in you

you lie and blind the minds of gods

righteous child

you snake you theif

of my heart you break

I am gonna be cool

walking with strength not allowing you

to get to me

its a shame you still glorify

ignorance and pain

imma sang through

the rain and heal

through  this pain

growth is what 

I am inviting

that bag

I've manifested

my spirituality

yea I am getting

excited

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Last Heartbreak

I am Literally Single

And Loving it..

in a long as relationship

Not knowing if it is solid or not

Can sure as hell be a distraction and

Fuck ya head up.

-Nothing really stands strong

If its built on a lie.

This new Found acknowledgement

Of freedom feels Rewarding!

I learned that I am patient,loyal, understanding,and a good listener.

I knew the relationship was over 

When I couldnt mentally

Take hearing him on the phone and

Annoyed....our sex vibe is gone..I lost

My attraction to him a year ago...I was trying to maintain the business aspect of the "personal" but my mental been checked out...thats the complete 10yr age gap...

I can't wait to find solitude again

And be my happy scorpio

Before I allowed a dark uninspired

Male scorpio attempt to steal my sparkle.

The Breakup Text

When I first started out in the adult industry Honestly I didnt know what the heck I was doing but I met a few friends along the way of journey.

In that Journey,I met a guy who was in the media/broadcast industry.Both Scorpios.

I will say my heart fell fast and I will admit.I did get sidetracked.15yrs in a toxic situation and at the time I didnt know I was stuck in a situation.I kept coming back and forth into ythe situation because I didn't know my place in his life and he was nonchalant about it..whats different now is growth.

I received a text that he can no longer have a "Personal Relationship" with me...Wait! Wait! What!? Soooo Thats what we were..Personal...Like Why didnt He say so after all these Years..But it was a Relief To Know..That it was a Personal Relationship...Tyxx.

Honestly,To know my value,my worth,my rights and my voice. I freely can let it go without feeling insecure of my future.

Thats what Led me into the industry was the free spirit nature, nudity and creativity.He used to block my creativity But the text summed everything up and I feel like Me Again.

I will never get into a situation so deep that it  takes me off my business and mental.

The goal is now for me to heal.

As I am reflecting I am feeling Very excited for My future.Leaving 2020 and all its BS right here.Only appreciating the losses and the lessons and growing from them to receive my blessings.

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Day 3 Of This Knee Injury

Its Been 3 days after the bike injury still no progress.I Haven't even Had my physical Therapy appointment yet..Like wtf are they waiting on....

So I have  to Take A deep breath and understand that its a non emergency only COVID-19😾😩

I've been icing and medicating all I want to do is just walk right out of this brace

I want this to heal fast

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